Wednesday, June 23, 2010

My family is now Cushing's free. Seems weird to be at the end. Pretty anti climactic. Bill had surgery with the same surgeon that J&J used last year. When he came out of the OR to talk to me, he said "you are now the only one in yor family with adrenal glands." I hadn't really thought of it in that way before.
It seems we fought so hard to get to the end of the Cushing's journey, I now feel a bit lost. I think I'm ready to become just myself again. I'm pretty sure I'll be doing that all by myself. I'm not sure if it's been Cushing's or something else that has been so present in our marriage for about the last 20 years. But whatever.... If he says it's over, well, that's fine by me. This time if he doesn't mean it (like all those other times) I do. Not sure of a timeline but I can only take so much.
People ask me how he's doing after surgery. I give the standard "oh, pretty good, I think. It'll take awhile to know." The truth is I have no idea.
But on a brighter note - I started doing something just for me. About the end of March I discovered Dove Chocolate Discoveries. It took just a couple of days to decide I was going to become a chocolatier. I love it. I give chocolate tasting parties at people's homes. It's really a lot of fun. So much different than any other type of party I'd been to. I've done fairly well with it. I haven't done much this month. I was gone the first two weeks of the month for Bill's surgery & only had one other party scheduled for June. I had been hesitant to book many parties until I knew how recovery was going to go.
I've met several goals in my first months & have earned extra commisions & several great gifts. I'm ready to get the ball rolling again. I did a tasting party this past Saturday & found I had missed doing them.


Hi, I'm Rene said...

I'm so sorry Judy. Life just isn't fair. You fight and fight to move on to another, better, life just to find a new battle beginning. You will get through this too. I'll continue to keep you all in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

Jude, you are my idol! There is zero way I can give you advice---I can only say that I became a much different person after getting my adrenals ripped out. Whatever happens you are one strong gal!